well.... highlights of my day...

1. i almost forgot to eat dinner.... whoops...*angelic smile* but it was cuz i was reading.... er.. trying to read... it doesnt help when you cant concentrate and you read a sentence like 5 times over... haha... and THEN you start to recognize what you're trying to read.... *sigh* silly school.... wait.. silly person that came up with exams.. school isnt bad... exams are... *shudders* haha.... evil exams!!!

2. my friend lent me a watch for exams... and it keeps beeping at me.... and it makes me jump SOO much... EVERY hour.. without fail.... oh boy.. shall be fun... writting an exam.... have it beep and then be like AH!!! in the middle of the exam... haha... actually... that'd be more fun for everyone else... but me.. cuz i'd be soo embarassed... haha.... whoops... hehe... its all good.. yes? maybe more for some then others... haha.....

3. talked to my kreme!!!!! YAY!!! haha... gurl... we need a gurls nite out... SOON!!!!!!!!!!!! before i pull ALL my hair out... and im completely bald... like worst then now...haha... and i'll be the one which every one says "how is she your twinnie??? OBVOUSLY you're not related... she's gorgeous!" *winkz* silly lil boy/man.. i dont even know who he is.. but when i find him, i shall kick him.... very, very hard... for being a bum... *sigh* boys *sigh* and on another note gurlie? oh how i am worried... like you wouldnt beleive it... BUT... 2 days... and counting.... *crosses fingers* if it makes a week... oh boy.. party time.. HONESTLY.. pull of the flipping highway!!!!

4. how to make a watch stop beeping 101. instructor: diana irwin. time: anytime. course description: please read the course name. enough said.

5. talked to my Daddy in heaven!!!! oks.. so i do that more then once a day... so no biggie rite? excpt THIS time... his lil dumb and impatient and apparently very deaf child got hit in the head with a "WILL YOU LISTEN UP?!!?!" oks.. so it wasnt quite like that... more like a guy driving around lost.... cuz they think they know everything.. when they really dont.. and then they FINALLY pull over for directions. (silly guys if you ask me.. *sigh*) but not quite like that, cuz i pulled over when i got fustrated and lost and worried and yaddy yaddy yadda. and... TADA!!!! life is just SO much easier when you listen to the One that knows whats going on in life... SOO much better.. haha.. oh boy.. i had issues spelling "better" good thing tomolos exam is multiple choice! haha

hmm.. not a lot happened today... its all bood. back to cramming

WOA.. guess who just got gmail? haha... and they give you SO much more storage then hotmail!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. *sigh* oh boy. haha... makes me wonder... SHOULD i really be getting this? hhaa... think of all the junk i will now keep!!! haha *sigh* oh wells...

so. today was PAULA's burfday!!!! yay!!!!!!!!! happy burfday gurlie!!! you guys all know how old she is rite? MAN..... like WOA... haha.. i didnt think she really was THAT much older then me... but then.... i now know. whoops. haha.. and sammi gave me a hamburger... the BEST candy in the world... oks so i lied.. one of the best.. haha... mmmmmmmmm...... (guess whats in my mouth now? and no julie.. its not gum... *winkz* hehe) and guess what? guess who decided that today was gonna be a nice day and wear sandel-high heel thingers? yeah. the brainer here... guess ALSO who stepped into a puddle? yep. me again.. *sigh* and my feet were JUST so cold!!! i was like going nuts. haha... well.. i wasnt oging nuts.. i was just cold ingeneral. ahha.. ask sammi.. she knows.. hahaha.

guess whose not allowed to take her car into toronto? o.0 drat eh? like a weekend in town and i cant take my car with me?! whats the deal with that?! *sigh* my silly mommy.... oh! you know what she did?! she got on my brothers msn ... and she was like "WHY ARENT YOU STUDYING?!!??!?!" *sigh*... its called a break mommy... SOMEDAYS your brains just on overload... today would be one... honestly. where HAS my brain gone?

*sigh* while im at it.. you know those days, when you KNOW God loves ya, and you kinda feel how much you do and you're just like NO GOD!!!! DONT !!!!! cuz you HONESTLY feel like God made a mistake when he chose to love you? yeah... thats me... it was worst last nite.. but still.. some of the things from today... and yesterday before i actually slept.. made me realize.. that God loving me? i have no say in this.. but as far as me loving him? i have lots to say there.. its like how most parents love their kids.. not matter what they've done.. only the difference here, is that im a sinner, and God is holy... i think back to the sunlight commercials.. where the mother still loves her lil boy, even tho he played in the mud and got all dirty... and she is able to wash it all out... according to the commercial anyways... cuz thats kinda like Gods love... we sin...aka get dirty.. and by the Blood of Jesus, we are washed clean again! and even tho its kinda aggrivating to wash clothes OVER and OVER again, must like how God had to watch Jesus die on the cross for us, he still did it for us.. because we mean just THAT much to him, just like how that lil boy means a lot to his mother. kinda neat eh? as for me still wanting to crawl under a rock and never face God cuz hes so holy? i know that i'll have no sins when i stand infront of God when i go see him... because Christ has already washed my sins away..... and they have gone bye-bye.. never to be seen again.. and because of that, i am able to go to God and stand infront of him.

wow. i honestly didnt mean to write ALL that... haha.... i didnt think all of this out either.. woa.. haha.. but its all good.. i rather have the WHOLE world know how crazy and messed up my life is because i have doubts and i fear, and to have them know of Gods love... who knows whose reading this.. like HOW many ppl have found this already!? hahaa... its all good. yes? haha.. maybe i should honestly sit down and put my thoughts onto paper and send it to "the lighthouse" cuz we always need more articles.... and if you have an article you wanna put into Lighthouse *ahem* david*ahem* then send them to: mcbc_lighthouse@yahoo.com. the only criteria? the world limit is 750... cuz you dun need to rite an essay for this.. or if you have like a fun game or activity or something that you would like, you can send it to us too. haha... but thats just a thought. and article submission is may 2. so hurry hurry hurry! (pst... but if you absoultly have something to send.. you can send it after this date too.. it just mite not get put into the eddition thats comming out next.. it depends on when the editing gets split up.. ks?)

and thats all i hafta say... for now... *winkz* hehhe... oh wells.

guess what?? guess who has a job?? MUAHA!!!! haha. yeah.. i found out last nite... but uhhh... my brain got fried and i forget about it... haha..

ANYWAYS... so i was cleaning out my email thinger... cuz.. yeah.. thers a LOTTA crap in folders for some reason that i cant think of.. anyways.. i got to one email.. from my angel.. and angel? if you read this? guess what? you made me cry. and you know what? no matter what happens in life, and wherever you go.. even if you go to pluto... (which i really hope you dont... cuz i'd miss you TONS... like you wouldnt believe it... ) im always here!!!! and thanx for always being there for me... and dealing with my "BUT!!!!" and my blonde ness... haha... its NOT my fault im always lost!!! haha... *sigh*

oh today.. what a day.. haha... found out some things that are not so good... so yeah... one of my gurls.. isnt doing so well... STUPID BOYS!!!! grr.... but not all boys... rite now? hmm... im thinking of one. and lets just say hes VERY stupid... and silly.. and being a bum.. and if i ever find out where he lives.. im gonna smack some sense into him... until then.. i shall devise a way to see him so that i can smack him.. hm.. whats a good day... the 7th looks good to me... cuz i shall be in town... rite gurlie? *winkz* good luck on ya exam gurlie!!! haha..

omg.. you know what i did? i bruised my toe!!!!!! (pst.. any of you that see/talk to my rents..... DONT TELL THEM!!!! cuz my daddy's gonna go "ah leui... *sigh* nay jou mut yeah ah? nai mm dook shiu ah?" and my mommy's gonna be like "ah leui... nay yao tong been goh dah gaow ah???" yeah... lets NOT go there... *sigh* haha... accident prone.. i tell ya.) but yeah... note to all of YOU.... DONT jump up onto counters... cuz you mite miss or something... and bruise ya self... but hey. its NOT my fault im so short.... honestly. why are things soo high up??? and honestly... why smoke? i know some ppl like it... like the person from whom we stole the smokes from so that she couldnt go smoke... but thats besides the point. the point IS, when you're going to hide smokes.. do it carefully so that you can ACTUALLY reach it when you go to give them back.. hahaha ... LEARN from my mistakes guys.. its not so fun to be sitting there.. on the phone and go "hey.... why does my toe hurt....." and then find out you bruised it... but only the people with the degree of my intelligence can do that.. hahaha.. its all good. *sigh* hehe..

hmm.. what else do i hafta say about my day? hmm.... oh! MABS WORK IS AWSOME!!!! bug her to see them... muahhaa... luv ya hun... ^.~ haha.. yeah.. shes gonna kick me.. but meh... all i can say is this: 7 sleeps til my car and 10 til my BIG day.. the day of FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. for like 4 months.. and then its back to the grind.... oh wells.. its all good!! hahaha.. oks time to shut... *angelic smile*

omg... its soo late... and im soo dead... so why am i still up?? *sigh* simple.. a gurly reason... WHY WONT MY HAIR DRY?!?!?! *sigh* maybe next time i should shower earlier.. hmm.. what an idea... oh my.. what a blonde day... thats not soo good.. anways.. today... er i guess like 3 hrs ago... was my friends burfday.. wonderful eh? EXCEPT when their non-stop hitting on you.. and you're like uh. no. doesnt help when others are kinda pushing it... *sigh* honestly... i need a vacation from all of this... one too much things going on rite now... oh wells... its in Gods hands rite? and thats the best that can happen. *smilez* its all good.. or it will be. trust me on that one.

oh boy. what a DAY! my boys lost. and i was SO upset with that... why? hmm.... maybe exams? i dunno.. i was just super upset about something that really didnt have much impact on anything.. *sigh* steph baked muffins tho.. mmm.. yummy... haha..

to all those who were praying for me... i think im done. i think i know. so YAY!!!!!!! cuz now now i dont hafta sit and think.... cuz that hurts my head.. you all know how tiny my brain is... AND i lost it again.. someone wanna help me find it before my bio exam? please? yes? oh. drat. nevermind then.. oh wells.. too bad. but its all good. i think... *crosses fingers* haha...

oh yeah. im going nuts. why? FLIPPING EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!! *sigh* must breathe in... and breathe out.... but its hard to do.. theres just SO much going on... and running through my head. SO... URGH!!!! oks.. so im a TAD stressed... whoops... maybe its time to just go and pray... yes? good idea? yes. haha.

oh boy. what a day. one of those start with a bang! and end not so well.. *sigh*

my twinnie came today!!!! so YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was good times.. i havent seen my twinnie in SO long. it was nice. and we had our usual crazy twinnieness. muahaha.. haha.. we were just being silly.. and like the parking thinger? like 10$?? in CHANGE?! whose the idiot that designed THAT?! oh boy.. that was fun it was like hmm... $9.00... $9.25.....$9.50..... ooh look!!! i found 2 quarters here!!!! $10.00!!!! yay!!!!!!!! *sigh* seriously... this place? OH BOY... needs help man.. thats ALL i gotta say.. i mean 10 bux?! in change?! uhh rite. whose the idiot that does THAT?? and there were TWO of us and we had problems.. like hello. ok then. whatever... all in all, it was good. we woke up shuga... kreme jumped on her.. haha.. it was good times... yes. haha.. oh i miss the old days... when we saw each other like EVERY day... now its like we do.. but only like two of us.. so its like hmm... o.0 somethings missing.. we're missing the Kreme in our Ti and Shuga!

oh man. i had a talk today. a much needed one. but at the same time its like URGH cuz now im just all the more lost. like hello?! i dont even know why im so lost about this!!! maybe its just my inability to trust... and trusting is the foundation for any relationship... so many things have happened. its only when you truely fully analyze them that you can honestly understand yourself. i never thought understanding yourself would be so hard. honestly. guess i was wrong... yet again. funny eh? how sad it is that? that others would understand yourself before you even had a clue. oh how i wish i could trust. oh how i wish trusting others was easy. sure i trust people. but not all on the same level. sorry guys.. you guys are shafted with me not trusting you so much... its kinda hard when you've been around so many jerks.. *sigh*

sometimes, i just wish i never met certain people.. but then if i didnt meet them and get to know them like the way i did, would i have become the person i am today? sure i may trust a lil more... but on the whole? i dont think so. God knows what hes doing. he puts certain people into your life for a specific reason rite? i just sometimes wished learning wasnt so hard. sure its about the proccess and not about the outcome.. but at the same time, im like lost. how hard is it to move on after pain and the past? quite hard if you ask me.. especially when the cuts are so deep, and with every cut, the original wound just gets deeper and deeper... and it becomes harder and harder to heal... maybe one day... this will all go away.. like a bad bad dream... hopefullly.

today? WONDERFUL day.. haha.. minus the getting no work done part. hahaha..wanna know why?

1. i saw wendy!!!! and pete.. but no offense to pete.. im more excited about seeing wendy!!! hahaha.. i havent seen her in AGES!!!!!!!!!! oh yes. fun times fun times... silly sisqo and nelly!!! omg!!!! 1. NO NELLY i didnt go out with sisqo, EVER NOR will i EVER go out with him!!!! *sigh* some people are just too 8 for their own good.... and silly sisquo? NO. you will never go out with my sister. EVER. some people just DRIVE ME NUTS!!! *sigh* whatever. and i dun get how he keeps adding me to his new lists even tho i NEVER talk to him... *confused face* whatever.

2. MY BOYS WON!!!!!!!!!! BOO-YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg.. the BEST period 1 in the world!!!! haha.. and my voice is all hoarse and my throat hurts... *sad face* someone wanna make me some lemon honey??? wait.. come to think about it... i'll get it when i go home ... maybe ... on sunday.. haha... *sigh* oh why is life so crazy hard??? wait.. i think its only cuz its exam time and its play off time.. haha.. whoops.. yeah.. exams should NOT coincide with play off time.. honestly... do we wonder why we fail? not me. im too busy watching the game!!! haha

3. ONE MORE SLEEP!!!!!!!!! omg.. im soo excited.. haha but oh boy. 9 am? me? dressed? hmm... wait.. me? out of bed? haha.. thats a new one.. SUCH a funny one too.. *sigh* oh wells.. one must do such things... muahah.. haha.. *sigh* oh boy. lots of gurl talk.....been sooo long. hahaha.. oh wells. its all good.. and some one must go and get some money for a parking pass.. whoops hahaha.. meh. tomolo morning we shall go. muahah. hehe

oh! and i found a new fav song.. every time i listen to it i either AM or wanting to cry, or im soo sad... it sounds kinda funny just reading the lyrics... but if ya want the song.. msg me haha.. its awsome... *sigh*

WHY ~ Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day,
Just me and my Daddy,
He said I'd finally reached the age,
And I could ride,
Next to him on a horse,
That of course was not quite as wide.

We heard a crowd of people shouting,
And so we stopped to find out why,
There was that man,
And my dad said he loved,
But today there was fear in his eyes.

So I said, 'Daddy why are they screaming?'
'Why are the faces of some of them beaming?'
'Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?'
'I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows,'
'Daddy please, can't you do something?'
'He looks as though he's gonna cry,'
'You said he was stronger than all of those guys,'
'Daddy please tell me why,'
'Why does everyone want him to die?'

Later that day the sky grew cloudy,
And Daddy said I should go inside,
Somehow he knew things would get stormy,
Boy was he right,
But I could not keep from wondering,
If there was something he had to hide.

So after he left I had to find out,
I was not afraid of getting lost,
So I followed the crowds,
To a hill where I knew men had been killed,
And I heard a voice come from a cross.

And it said, 'Father, why are they screaming?'
'Why are the faces of some of them beaming?'
'Why are they casting their lots for my clothes?'
'This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows,'
'Father please, can't you do something?'
'I know that you must hear my cry,'
'I thought I could handle a cross of this size,'
'Father remind me why,'
'Why does everyone want me to die?'
'Oh when will I understand why?'

'My precious son, I hear them screaming,'
'And I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming,'
'But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own,'
'Jesus this hurts me much more than you know,'
'But this dark hour I must do nothing,'
'Though I've heard your unbearable cry,'
'The power in your blood destroys all of the lies,'
'Soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes,'
'Look there below, at that sweet child,'
'Trembling by her father's side,'
'Now I can tell you why,'

'She is why you must die.'

soo.... guess what? CHICKEN BUTT!! oks... maybe not.. but guess who has her own car?? jealous? TOO BAD! hahaha... oh yeah the quote that i was looking for before, but couldnt find because i was at home and the book wasnt home.... "The man slept through the woman's creation, and has been puzzled by women ever since" ~ nancy tischler. but yeah.. i forgot why i needed that.. haha..

omg... my flipping house?? GRRRRR...... let me tell ya... egg on brick does NOT smell nice!!!!! *sigh* im soo sick of it... *sigh* silly immature ____________ who cant learn to cook eggs... *sigh*... eggs are made in a pan.. maybe a pot.. if you're gonna boil them... but DEFINATLY NOT on bricks.. or stone tiles... like hello?! *sigh* whatever....

as far as trying to think/study... anyone seen my brain? its about the size of a pea... i think it fell out while i was sleeping or something.... cuz yeah... having it for my exams would be nice... for a change.... '-' i know... explains a lot when you KNOW i dun have my brain.... *sigh*...

*sigh* soooo sleepy.... i m such a blonde today too!!!! haha... my daddys like "put the roast in at 4.45-5.00" and im like "ok" at like 5.30 my sister comes and wakes me up and shes like "ahhh!!!!! sorry i forgot to wake you up!!!!" haha.. oh wells.. that just means im not going til AFTER the game.... cuz GO LEAFS GO!!!! hahaha... and if YOU have a problem with them winning... come find me... time for parking lot discussions.. *intimidating look* <--haha me? intimidating? im an angel!!! hhahaha..

hmm... other notes... GUESS WHOSE GOING TO *AWAKE*!!!!!!!!!!! haha yeah.. i dunno... mite still hafta be kidnapped tho... shall keep y'all posted.. (woa.. that was SOO hill-billy... like "y'all come back now, ya hear?" haha... too much day camp at FAC... HONESTLY!!!!! hahah.. but it was fun... i loved it. haha) but yeah... daddy doesnt know about it... at least mommy's cool with it... actually i think its cuz she really has no say in where i go or what i do anymore... haha.. cuz regradless.. im gonna get there.. somehow... eventually. haha. *shrugs* oh wells. haha

and i was fighting with my brother.... like always.... when im not driving... but sometimes this happens as i drive too... and then its like "WILL YOU SHUT UP?!?!?!?!" and the whole " FINE. WALK HOME. IM SOO NOT DRIVING YOU!" even tho i dun actually do anything about it.. haha... maybe i should one day. hmmm.... hahah.. naw.. i luv him too much for that.. and sides.. mommy and daddy mite have someting to say about that... the walk home from church is kinda bad... but maybe from else where.. hmm.. haha... anways.. we had a fight... it went like this:

vic: I NEED MY RIGHT HAND!!!! i still hafta write my exams!!!! what are you doing?!!
my brother: oh... oks...
*2 mins later*
my brother: do you need your right hand???
vic : no.... what ARE you doing?!?!?!?! stop!!! i need my right hand!!!!!

yeah.. im a blonde.. im aware of that.. hahaha... and then there was me and my mommy.. oh boy... haha.. good times.... trying to deal with a roast... when you're half asleep and making juice when you're like REALLY not awake.. haha.. *sigh*

and then theres that game.. URGH... i got soo upset!!!!! haha.. my daddy measured my blood pressure during period 3.. and yeah.. my mommy almost made me stop watching the game... daddy didnt like it.. but he had no choice but to comply with me... cuz we took his blood pressure too.. hahaha.. oh mommy. *sigh* hehe.. when will she learn to love hockey? oh that will be THE day. haha.

and as far as announcements go? hmm...do i have any? uhh.. go to *awake* haha.. yeah.. thats all i gotta say.. i think.. haha.. oh! and this awsome quote i found in this book im reading.... but then i dun have my book rite now. haha. so yeah.. whoops. you guys will just hafta see it later. haha

oks guys (and gurls for those who care). a couple of things. listen up. hahahaha. announcement time...

1. for those of you going to *awake* and for all those that think its TOO far for you to go to, listen up. heres a map

2. for those of you who want to do something about bill C-250, heres a link you mite wanna look at.

3. for those of you who wanna be praying for other things because you have it in your heart to pray for others, or you just need something to do, then talk to me.. cuz theres a WHOLE wack of things to pray for... and if you dont, thats cool. but if you feel like doing some more praying, even for people you dont know (thats the coolest part.. to pray for someone and not have them know is like WOA!!!!! haha.. its soo much fun... ) then yeah... oh! if you have a prayer request, you can talk to me too. and i shall write you into my red book and pray for you before i sleep. ALMOST every night.. cuz im sure tehres bound to be a day where i fall asleep while praying or yeah.. not so good.. BUT theres a condition!!!! you hafta tell me when its been answered/ you dun need prayer anymore... cuz otherwise i'd just be praying for something thats not really needing prayer for.. hahaha

hmm.... thats a lotta announcements for the 2 days that i havent blogged.... hmm... did i leave anything out? hmm...

anways.. ya know whats weird? i listen to more old school pop then punk/rock now.. someone wanna tell me whats wrong with me? please? not that theres anything wrong with pop... its just not really me... hmm...