remember to smile, it confuses people.

a simple friend has never seen you cry.
a real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

a simple friend doesnt know your parent's first names.
a real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

a simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
a real friend comes early to help you cook and stayes late to help you clean.

a simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
a real friend asks why you took so long to call.

a simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
a real friend seeks to help you with your problems

a simple friend wonders about your romantic history
a real friend could blackmail you with it

a simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
a real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself

a simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument
a real frind knows that its not a friendship until after you've had a fight

a simple friend expects you to always be there for them
a real friend expects to always be there for you!

something on my heart i guess..hahaha

Somehow I know that
There's a place up above
With no more hurt and struggling
Free of all atrocities and suffering
Because I feel the unconditional love
From one who cares enough for me
To erase all my burdens
And let me be free to

Fly like a bird
Take to the sky
I need you now Lord
Carry me high
Don't let the world break me tonight
I need the strength of you by my side
Sometimes this life can be so cold
I pray you'll come and carry me home

Can we recover
Will the world ever be
A place of peace and harmony
With no war and with no brutality
If we loved each other
We would find victory
But in this harsh reality
Sometimes I'm so despondant
That I feel the need to

Fly like a bird
Take to the sky
I need You now Lord
Carry me high
Don't let the world break me tonight
I need the strength of You by my side
Sometimes this life can be so cold
I pray You'll come and carry me home

Keep your head to the sky
With God's love you'll survive

Fly like a bird
Take to the sky
I need you now Lord
Carry me high
Don't let the world break me tonight
I need the strength of You by my side

Sometimes this life can be so cold
I pray You'll come and carry me home
Carry me higher, higher, higher
Carry me higher, higher, higher
Carry me home
Higher Jesus
Carry me higher Lord

Thank you Jesus, Amen

the things companies will ask you to do, just to earn money..i mean common...making money by putting some ad thing on your blog?! all i want to do is express myself..and maybe if im lucky, what im going through, someone...whoever reads this thing anymore, can connect to...maybe help their life a bit...or at least let them know they're not alone in what they're feeling...if they feel the same way as i do..

mariah's gotta be my hero. i LOVE her voice! i wish i could sing like her...than maybe i'll never stop singing...i'll never stop praising..but i know she has her troubles too..lauryn hill too..kinda funny how im back to where i was before that punk rock stuff...actually..rock in general..thank God for music..for having artists publish their work!



sorry..its so fuzzy... but this song and this one:



but i like the lauryn hill one more..

focus on what God wants you to do..i know, easier said than done..

why is it that i am wanting you, needing you, wanting me, needing me? ..but i guess you'll never hear these words from me..

Lord, im tired. Lord help me to keep walking on the path you've given me. and Lord, if its not too much trouble, give me strength to overcome this brokendown body of mine. and to keep me from being discouraged by the problems, and to keep my eyes on you. amen.

i hope you're happy in whatever you do. i hope you're happy wherever you are now. just know that at the end of each and every day, i love you. at the end of each and every day, i miss you. i miss every moment you're not here with me. regardless of what i know. regardless of what anyone else knows. none of it makes a difference if you dont know it for yourself. just know that at the end of every day, and in each moment, i will always be here.


lest we forget.

...oh the sappyness!! hahaha...whatever.. you know you LUFF it!! hahaahahaha

...just kidding..i know you dont..but its fun to tease you! ^.~ hehehee

summer update to come...later...hahaha..maybe after my drama..hahahah


...wise men say...

kinda funny how God made music.
i used to dislike my lessons.
but NOW i am thankful for it,
for without them,
i dont know if i would have learnt all that God has been teaching me through songs
i dont know if my life would have been so rich.

i guess this is where my life is at.
this is to one person in specific.
i guess its better if some details are left out
but this person, if he/she should read this,
will know that i am taking to him/her.


Meteor Rain ~ by F4

"The loving starry sky
Should make you feel touched
I'm here by your side
Decorating a piece of heaven for you
I wouldn't allow you to feel sad
I'll chase away your loneliness
The weight of your unfulfilled dreams
let me bear them all
Leading you by the hand
Doesn't matter how strong the wind becomes
For you have me now
You'll never lose your way again."

if you read this, you should know what i mean.
if you some how find your way here, this is from my heart to yours.
if you some how find this, look into into my eyes,
where i can see your soul, and you can see mine.
i know where your heart is, do you know where mine is?

so i guess this one song explains my whole life rite now..funny how its from a backstreet boy! but i love them nevertheless..

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said “no way”
But I laid it all down, gave everything
In my head rang the words that my Father said
You’re never far
I will be where you are
And when you come to Me
I will open My arms

Welcome home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know, son, it’s good just to see your face

When I look at you holding my heart
I will give to you all that I have
Son, I know there’ll be times you will feel all alone
I will share with you the words my Father said
You’re never far
I will be where you are
And when you come to Me
You can bet I will open My arms

So I’ll be waiting for that day
Just to feel Your warm embrace
Your love has shown I will never be alone
For You will welcome me home
I’ll forever be, for you will say to me
Welcome home

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said “no way”