so.. i've been asking myself, why do i bother to love people, regardless of what it says in the Bible? i just want to stop loving people. anyone and everyone. just stop. but i cant. according to one of my friend (who thinks that they know me well) i'd die if i stopped loving people. that made me wonder..would i really die if i didnt love others around me?

its funny how as soon as one question is answered, you question another thing and another and another. but i saw one of my friends today, and he had a lot to say about something else that im wondering that just told me that it applied to this question too. he told me this story that he read out of "our daily bread"

there was a man, who loved emperor moths, and one day found a cocoon and decided to take it home. as the moth was struggling to get out, the man decided to help it by cutting the cocoon open. but in doing so, he had hurt the little moth. you see. it is through the struggle of comming out of the cocoon that fluid is pushed through the wings and only though that, can the moth truely fly.

its like when the apostle Paul said in 2 Corinthians 12:7-10. it says

To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

so i guess what i really hafta learn is to keep trucking. its very easy to tell other ppl that. trust me. i do it ALL the time. but its hard to tell yourself that. i guess i must keep loving people. "for when i am weak, then i am strong"

oh the sappy one i am. hahaha. this is SUCH a cute song! thanx sammi!

Take A Chance

In Your Final Kiss
I Could Taste The Flavor Of Tobaco
It Was A Bitter And Painful Smell

At About This Time Tomorrow
I Wonder Where You'll Be
I Wonder Who You'll Be Thinking Of

You Are Always Gonna Be My Love
Even If Someday You Fall In Love With Someone Else
I'll Remember To Love
You Taught Me How
You Are Always Gonna Be The One
For Now It's Still A Sad Love Song
Until I Can Sing A New One

When I Stop Moving
I Try To Move On
It's Nothing But Things I Don't Want To Forget

At About This Time Tomorrow
I'm Sure I'll Be Crying
And I'll Probably Be Thinking Of You

You Will Always Be Inside My Heart
Because It's A Place That Will Forever Be Yours Alone
I Hope That I Have A Place In Your Heart Too
Now And Forever You Are Still The One
For Now It's Still A Sad Love Song
Until I Can Sing A New One

You Are Always Gonna Be My Love
Even If Someday You Fall In Love With Someone Else
I'll Remember To Love
You Taught Me How
You Are Always Gonna Be The One
For Now It's Still A Sad Love Song
Until I Can Sing A New One
Now Forever

weddings suck. more like weddings are good and that i suck at weddings.


why?


i cry.



heres some lyrics to think about. haha. or at least made me cry.. for the THRID time today. *sigh* what a cry baby. i know.

As I sit here and think about all that im missing, all that im missing
Got everything that i could ever ask for, but you
as i pass down this bend wondering how you've been, wondering how you been.
but the more that your on my mind im just lonely and blue can u see
why can you be with me to hold me tight,
jus being with you will make everything better and right

i wanna have you by my side
you always make it right
and without you my heart starts to cry
will i ever go on or will i stay strong
do you see without you my soul dies

i sat up all night remembering what we had
but i can sleep a wink im thinkin of you makes me sad
i cant seem to shake you off my mind
just wanna go back in time and just press rewind

i wanna have you by my side
you always make it right
and without you my heart starts to cry
will i ever go on or will i stay strong
do you see without you my soul dies

your all that i want
your all that i need
so why dont you come and be with me

i wanna have you by my side
you always make it right
and without you my heart starts to cry
will i ever go on or will i stay strong
do you see without you my soul dies

if you would like this song, msg me. i send you. haha. on another note? dont ever love someone else. its wonderful when its good...and when its not.. yeah.

this is the word book from one of my favourite works. read them. reflect on them. and if you want, you can share with me what they said to you and what you feel about them.

Comfort ye, comfort ye my people, saith your God.Speak ye comfortably to Jerusalem, and cry unto her, that her warfare is accomplished, that her iniquity is pardoned. The voice of him that crieth in th wilderness, Prepare ye the way of the Lord, make straight in the desert a highway for our God.

Every valley shall be exalted, and every mountain and hill made low: the crooked, straight and the rough places plain. And the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together: for the mouth of the Lord hath spoken it.

Thus saith the Lord of hosts; Yet once, a little while, and I will shake the heavens, and the earth, the sea, and the dry land; And i will shake all nations, and the desire of all nations shall come: the Lord, whom ye seek, shall suddenly come to his temple, even the messenger of the convenant, whom ye delight in: behold, he shall come, saith the Lord of hosts.

But who may abide the day of his comming? And who shall stand when he appeareth? For he is like a refiner's fire, and he shall purify the sons of Levi, that they may offer unto the Lord and offering in righteousness.

Behold, a virgin shall conceive, and bear a son, and shall call his name "Immanuel, "God with us."

O thou that tellest good tidings to ion, get thee up into the high mountain; O though that tellest good tidings to Jerusalem, lift up thy voice with strength; lift it up, be not afriad; say unto the cities of Judah, Behold your God! Arise, shine; for they light is come, and the glory of the Lord is risen upon thee. For, behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and gross darkness the people: but the Lord shall arise upon thee, and His glory shall be seen upon thee. And the Gentiles shall come to thy light, and kings to the brightness of thy rising. The people that walked in the darkness have seen a great light: and they that dwell in the land of the shadow of death, upon them hath the light shined.

For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, counsellor, THe Mighty God, The Everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.

There were sheperds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid. And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord. And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying, Glory to God in the highest, and peace on earth, good will towards men.


Rejoice greatly, O daughter of Zion; shout, O daughter of Jerusalem: behold, thy King cometh unto thee: he is the righteous Saviour, and he shall speak peace unto the heathen: Then shall the eyes of the blind be opened, and the ears of the deaf unstopped. Then shall the lame man leap as a hart, and the tongue of the dumb shall sing.

He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: and he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry them in his bosom, and gently lead those that are with young. come unto Him, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and He will give you rest. Take His yoke upon you, and learn of Him, for He is meek and lowly of heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls, His yoke is easy, and His burthen is light.

Behold, the lamb of God, that taketh away the sin of the world! He was despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief. He gave His back to the smiters, and His cheeks to them that plucked off the hair: He hid not His face from shame and spitting. Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.

All they that see him laugh him to score: they shoot out their lips, and shake there heads, saying He trusted in God that he would deliver him: let him deliver him, if he delight in him. Thy rebuke hath broken his heart; he is full of heaviness: he looked for some to have pity on him, but there was no man; neither found he any to comfort him. Behold, and see if there be any sorrow like unto his sorrow. He was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of thy people was he stricken. But thous dist not leave his soul in hell; nore didst thou suffer thy Holy One to see corruption.

Lift up your head, O ye gates; and be ye lift up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? the Lord strong and mighty, the Lord mighty in battle. Lift up your head, O ye gates: and be lift up, ye everlasting doors;. and the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? the Lord of hosts, he is the King of glory. Unto which of the angels said he at anytime, thou art my Son, this day have I begotten thee? Let all the angels of God worship him.

Thou art gone up on high, thou hast led captivity captive: and received gifts for men; yea, even for thine enemies, that the Lord God might dwell among them. The Lord gave the word: great was the company of the preachers. How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things! Their sound is gone out unto all lands, and their words unto the ends of the world.

Why do the nations so furiously rage together, why do the people imagine a vain thing? The kings of the earth rise up, and the rulers take counsel together, agains the Lord and agains his anointed.

Let us break their bonds asunder, and cast away their yokes from us. He that dwelleth in heaven shall laugh them to scorn: the Lord shall have them in derision. Thou shalt break them with a rod of iron; thou shalt dash them in pieces like a potter's vessel.

Hallelujah: for the Lord god omnipotent reigneth. The kingdom of this world is become the kingdom of our Lord, and of his Christ; and he shall reign forever and ever. King of Kings, and Lord of Lords.

I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth. And though worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh shall I see God. For now is Christ risen from the dead, the first fruits of them that sleep. Since by man came death, by man came also the resurrection of the dead. For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.

Behold, I tell you a mystery; We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed. In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye at the last trumpet: the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. For this corruptible must put on incorruption, and this mortal must put on immoratality. Then shall be brough to pass the saying that is written, Death is swallowed up in victory.

O death, where is thy sting? O grave, were is thy victory? The sting of death is sing; and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

If God be for us who can be agains us? Who shall lay anything to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth. Who is he that condemneth? It is CHrist that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is at the right hand of God, who maketh intercession for us.

Worthy is the Lamb that was slain and hath redeemed us to God by His blood to receive power, and riches, and wisom, and strength, and honour, and glory, and blessing.

Blessing and honour, glory, and power, be unto Him that sitteth upon the throne, and unto the Lamb for ever and ever.

Amen.

do you know who this is written by? its "copyrighted" august 28, 1741, by a guy who goes by the name, Handel.

so i did a quiz today.

funny how everything i ever wanted, i ever hoped for, i ever wished..is rite in front of me.

funny how its never really that simple.

funny how i never even knew.

sometimes quizes are stupid. most of them mean nothing.
this one was an eye opener.

so ive been doing some searching.

ive found some answers.

some may be right. some may be wrong.

how come i never knew that missing your friends would be such a horrible and tramatic experience?

...maybe its just better if i never had friends...

question.

who do you tell?

btw, my mommy randomly decided to tell me that im getting fat and that my butts too big... o.0 what a day. *sigh*

oks. time for a REAL blog...hahaha. oh dear. its gonna be long..side note:ims mls!

oks. so these past however many days, i havent been around...at least on blogger..hahha. its been a crazy time...since exams in DECEMBER..blah! its like somethings always on the go, and i never stop and sit down. fun times! really.

neways..some ppl, i havent seen in a while, and i see around..but never have the chance to just stop and say hi...well... HIHIHIHI!! sorry. i dun mean to just ignore you like that..but yeah.. sometimes im too busy or im on a mission to do a specific task and i know that if i stop to talk to you....thats all i'll do, cuz i'll forget my task, and yeah.. that would be a failed mission..

sammi comes home soon. and you know what? thats all i need to know. its good enough for me. cuz IMS!!! MLS!!! kekeke. oh dear. the stuff we do.. hahaha "last i checked i was still yellow and healthy" *sigh* she makes my day! thanx sammi!

ive learnt to simply trust in the plan. and now..i think im learning to have faith.. it shall be fun. maybe. learning to have faith is tough.. its harder and bigger then learning to trust in the plan...and that was hard enough to learn... so yeah. so much is on the brain. it shall be a fun period of time while things sort themselves out..

time for bed...cuz we loose an hr. *Sigh*