"God made you. perfect. just the way you are. dont ever let anyone tell you otherwise."
center stage. 2000.

there was a time when people mattered to me.
there was a time when i mattered to people.
now its me. and just me.
as part of my life is done, a new part begins.

one thing that will always be real. i'll always be here for you.
unlike you, i'll actually to it. because i mean it.
unlike you, i say what i mean and i mean what i say.

be good.
God is watching over you. Jesus is rite next to you.
if those 2 things dont make you watch yourself and be good, i dont know what will.

have a good life.
good bye.

Your #1 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: ESTJ

The Guardian You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker. Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them. You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities. Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done! You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

Your #3 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #4 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your #5 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

according to this....what im doing in school doesnt line up...hmm..

this is from my darling rosi. and i thought you could use it too. it made me cry. we all know why.

An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which she carried across her neck. One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water.

At the end of the long walk from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the woman bringing home only one and a half pots of water. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it could only do half of what it had been made to do.

After 2 years of what it perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke to the woman one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house."

The old woman smiled, "Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, so I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back, you water them."

"For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table. Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house." Each of us has our own unique flaw. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our livestogether so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are and look for the good in them.

To all of my crackpot friends, have a great day and remember to smell the flowers.

for those that know. yeah. bawling time. btw, thanx rosi.

some things in life are just so hard to deal with.
some things i just hafta learn to accept them.
some things i just cant accept. and this would be one of them.
some things i just cant deal with. they affect other things that are too big for me to deal with.
and here i go.

he gives and takes away.
i will choose to say
Lord, blessed be your name.

hello world.
i GUESS im finally back. but i only have 2 weeks off before i start school again. life is SOO stressful! well.. maybe its just cuz i stress too much. how do you stop stressing and stop worrying once you start? its so hard. i cant stop worry and stressing. and i cant not do work. how do i relax? how do you learn something like that? how do you TEACH someone that? telling me to do nothing isnt the way to do it either...i dun think... cuz i get sooo much more stressed from not doing anything that i finally just go do something to be not as stressed. which doesnt help my non-relaxing either. what does it mean to relax anyhow? it sounds to me as elusive an idea as freedom. something that you just cant define but you know what it is when you've attained it. when will i obtain it? will i ever get it?

so many things are flying rite AT me or PAST me. so many people i know i should talk to, but i just cant bring myself to. and the more i look at my reasons for not, the dumber the reasons become, until eventually they just become an excuse or a question of laziness. or maybe even just more trust issues. how do you learn to trust when you dont even trust yourself? its so hard to take things one step at a time, when you dont even know what the step you've about to take IS, or you dont even know what step you're taking rite now. who do i trust? what do i trust in?

how do you tell yourself who you are? how do you find out who you are? how do you remind yourself that you are a child of God and that He loves you SO much? how do you tell yourself that you're beautiful, JUST BECAUSE God loves me? you know that sunday school song that goes "Jesus loves me, this i know, for the Bible tells me so. Little ones to Him belong, they are weak, but he is strong" that songs been running through my head. but i cant even bring myself to sing it even in my brain, or whisper it our even sing it out loud. and when i hear it. i just start to cry. and thats that. as i sit here and type now, im crying. "silly girl" is that you're thinking rite? or maybe its even just "you're so stupid" but you know what? i dont care what you say. ive spent too much of my life already thinking about whatever negative things ppl have said to me. and now its time to come clean and to deal with them as they come up, instead of keep them inside of me and remembering them. its good enough to know that God loves me enough for me to send Jesus to earth to die for MY sins and that God loves me enough to have made me in the image of him, and maybe i should just stop calling that ugly. because love, doesnt care about the yuckyness of a person on the outside. since Jesus doesnt care about that in me, maybe i should stop caring about the negative comments then.

somethings in life are ment to be appreciated. and i THANK you. all of you who have made me laugh. especially those in the last week. oh jz. oh how i needed it! thanx. i know i can always count on you for the joys and to split my sorrows.

so.
as i stress about exams.
thank you everyone for being there for me.
heres some lyrics for you.
my dearest dan wrote it.
i like.
its cute. haha.
cya later (thats if i dun die from tomolos exam OR crazy drivers!)

'Till the End By: Daniel Rocha

Sometimes you may not feel the best
Sometimes you may feel need for rest
But I can tell you what is true
Somethin you and I can clue
So follow along...

There are times we cannot bear
There are times that we can spare
But no matter what happens, you know
Just gotta go with the flow

Cuz I'll be there
Cuz I'll be there

We're best friends, so time to journey on
Nothing can stop us, from movin along
Stickin together, we can get through this
Cuz you know, as well as I, Till the end

Sometimes the world shifts on you
Things happen the way they do
So then you decide to change
But I see it differently
So follow along

Just cuz things dont go your way
Life must move, and so must you
But you can assure you're not alone
Pull yourself together, we've all been there

We only live once in this world
So make the most of all you can
Learn from mistakes and do your best
Let's all travel on this road together

'Till the End---

so.
i've had a day of thinking.
so much has happened in the last two days ALONE!
one of my friends is leaving me forever.
one of my friends needs major prayer
i almost died today.
etc.

its been a "fun" and definatly reflective time.
to see God do his wonders.
and to see God bless so many peoples lives, in so many ways.

one thing to NEVER tell your parents?
you almost died in an car accident today.
cheers.

so..my mommy sent me an email today..i think all the guys will enjoy it. hahah!

It's not difficult... To make a woman happy; a man only needs to be :
1. a friend
2. a companion
3. a lover
4. a brother
5. a father
6. a master
7. a chef
8. an electrician
9. a carpenter
10. a plumber
11. a mechanic
12. a decorator
13. a stylist
14 . a gynaecologist
16. a psychologist
17. a pest exterminator
18. a psychiatrist
19. a healer
20. a good listener
21. an organiser
22. a good father
23. very clean
24. sympathetic
25. athletic
26. warm
27. attentive
28. gallant
29. intelligent
30. funny
31. creative
32. tender
33. strong
34. understanding
35. tolerant
36. prudent
37. ambitious
38. capable
39. courageous
40. determined
41. true
42. dependable
43. passionate

WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:
44. give her compliments regularly
45. love shopping
46. be honest
47. be very rich
48. not stress her out
49. not look at other girls

AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:
50. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
51. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
52. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes

IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:
53. Never to forget:
* birthdays
* anniversaries
* arrangements she makes


HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY :
1 . Leave him in peace

have a good day gentlemen! hahaha. sorry. i just find it hilarious...maybe the world DOES revolve around the ladies...hmm...hahaha

something that i was just really listening to today, while being stressed and cramming. this is a song sung by nicole nordman. and i like. wait. i love. i'll sing it for you one day if you need it or if you want me to. smile! Jesus loves you!

oh, great god, be small enough to hear me now
there were times when i was crying from the dark of daniel's den
and i have asked you once or twice if you would part the sea again
but tonight i do not need a fiery pillar in the sky
just wanna know you're gonna hold me if i start to cry
oh, great god, be small enough to hear me now

oh, great god, be close enough to feel you now
there have been moments when i could not face goliath on my own
and how could i forget we've marched around our share of jerichos
but i will not be setting out a fleece for you tonight
just wanna know that everything will be alright
oh great god, be close enough to feel you now

all praise and all honor be to the god of ancient mysteries
whose every sign and wonder turn the pages of our history
but tonight my heart is heavy and i cannot keep from whispering this prayer
"are you there?"

and i know you could leave writing on the wall thats just for me
or send wisdom while i'm sleeping, like in soloman's sweet dreams
but i don't need the strength of samson or a chariot in the end
just want to know that you still know how many hairs are on my head
oh great god, be small enough to hear me now