the things companies will ask you to do, just to earn money..i mean common...making money by putting some ad thing on your blog?! all i want to do is express myself..and maybe if im lucky, what im going through, someone...whoever reads this thing anymore, can connect to...maybe help their life a bit...or at least let them know they're not alone in what they're feeling...if they feel the same way as i do..

mariah's gotta be my hero. i LOVE her voice! i wish i could sing like her...than maybe i'll never stop singing...i'll never stop praising..but i know she has her troubles too..lauryn hill too..kinda funny how im back to where i was before that punk rock stuff...actually..rock in general..thank God for music..for having artists publish their work!



sorry..its so fuzzy... but this song and this one:



but i like the lauryn hill one more..

focus on what God wants you to do..i know, easier said than done..

why is it that i am wanting you, needing you, wanting me, needing me? ..but i guess you'll never hear these words from me..