this is sooo sad!!!

heres the story line: "After their first date, Edison suddenly vanish from the world. When Edison graduated from the Police Acadamy, he was asked to be an undercover cop in a gang of illegal car racers. Without realzing, when he agrees is when his life began to make a complete change. From that point on, Ed and Gill leads 2 different life. Gil went all over the places to look for him....she call him over and over...but nothing can make him reapear back into her life. In the end, Ed was discovered by the gang boss that he is an undercover and was beaten to death. At last, gil finaly knows what happen to ed and she is really sad. What ed left back in this world for her is their first, and only date..and he will forever stays in her heart"

its by a guy named Tension, and its called "our story".
i dunno what i would do if i were her...

some things ive been learning about these days..

who am i really? do i even know who i am?i used to define my self by the world..but that was wrong..and God took that away from me..so i had to go to him and find out who i really am...it seems that this last month, ive been defining myself by the ways i serve..but thats should just be what i do out of my expression of love for God..out of my thankfulness for him, and everything hes done for me...yet..somehow..one lie after another...i now find myself defining myself by the ways im serving Him...

what a silly girl.

so back to the beginning, learning to go with God, and going where he wants me to go, all over again...falling head over heals with your first love, all over again..its like making up again after a fight..its the best feeling in the world..because thats when you FULLY know and FEEL that you've been forgiven..and freed from sin.

funny how that option is always open to us...yet we dont always ask..