trust is a lil funny thing.

acording to dictionary.com, it is defined as "Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing."

funny how it takes years to build up, and only seconds to destroy.

another funny lil thing? faith.

its defined as "Confident belief in the truth, value, or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing." or "Belief that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence"

its one of those things that when you finally believe you have it, you find that you never really did have it.

wonderful isnt it? or maybe not.

more fustrating then anything if you ask me.

ask me one day. i'll tell you what ive been learning. and how much fun THAT was.

smile.

if you have nothing to smile about, just remember, Jesus loves you.

in the purpose driven life, it says

"even before his crucifizion, the Son of God was stripped naked, beaten until almost unrecognizable, whipped, scorned and mocked, crowned with throns, and spit on contemptuously. Abused and ridiculed by heatrless men, was was treated worst than an animal.

Then, nearly unconscious from blood loss, he was forced to drag a cumbersome cross up a hill, was nailed to it, and was left to die the slow, excruciating torture of death by crucifixion. While his life blood drained out, hecklers stood by and shouted insults, making fun of his pain and challenging his claim to be God.

Next, as Jesus took all of mankind's sin and guilt on himself, God looked away from that ugly sight, and Jesus cried out in total desperation, 'My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?' Jesus could have saved himself - but then he could not have saved you.

now if you ask me, if that doesnt give you something to be thankful for or something to make you smile about, know this. the most awesomest person, the ONLY perfect man in the WHOLE entire world, died for you. and died for me. so that we mite be able to go to Heaven AND be Gods children. how wonderful is that? Praise God. Praise Him from whom ALL blessings flow.