day two of a new life.
funny how leaving things behind isnt always as hard as you thought it was. or maybe i've just out grown these people. so no matter what they hafta say to me, it wont make a difference to me. funny how you used to value certain people, and it was hard to drift appart. but now that we are seperated, it feels perfectly fine. so maybe i dont miss them as much as i thought i would. maybe one day, God will bring us back together again and then we can see how we've grown and how having them in our lives wouldnt have made a difference to how we turned out to be anyhow.

its funny. why does it hurt so much more when they say things about you, instead of saying it to your face? so ive been left behind from their lives. and their in the process of being left behind in mine. so we have these superficial meetings and events where we think the world is flat and everything is as it should be. but is it really?

would you miss me if i was gone? would you care if i just never talked to you again? would wonder where i went if you never saw me again? funny how you say that i matter when the answer to all those questions is a big fat no.

some of you dun have time anymore. you know what? im swamped with stuff to do as well. but i thought that our friendships were worth saving and setting aside time for. i guess you didnt.

some of you think that what you think is going on in my life is more accurate then me telling you. congratulations. why would i try to show you what my life is really like?

some of you thik that friendships are maintained through information filtered through the grapevine. uh. no. not true. you always need to get informatioin from the source. not from whoever you wanna get information from because you cant be bothered to deal with things or help your friends through their problems or to share in their joyous moments.

some of you think the ocasional "how are you?" is good enough. it is...if all you ever wanna know is that your friend is still breathing and their heart is still pumping. too bad for you, their not dead yet.

i try. i honestly do. if you know about mg, then you know what im talking about. well you know what? its working. im walking away. and im never looking back.