two things... maybe 3..

1. mission: failed. game over. "tough luck kid. better luck next time"

2.intresting read:

Today I know that memories are the key not to the past, but to the future. I know that the experiences of our lives, when we let God use them, become the mysterious and perfect prepartion for the work He will give us to do. -Corrie Ten Boom, The Hiding Place

explains lots. stands for lots. you'll know if you know whats going on.

3. dont ask. because im not sure i'd explain it to you. especially "you". you know who you are.