WOA.. guess who just got gmail? haha... and they give you SO much more storage then hotmail!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. *sigh* oh boy. haha... makes me wonder... SHOULD i really be getting this? hhaa... think of all the junk i will now keep!!! haha *sigh* oh wells...

so. today was PAULA's burfday!!!! yay!!!!!!!!! happy burfday gurlie!!! you guys all know how old she is rite? MAN..... like WOA... haha.. i didnt think she really was THAT much older then me... but then.... i now know. whoops. haha.. and sammi gave me a hamburger... the BEST candy in the world... oks so i lied.. one of the best.. haha... mmmmmmmmm...... (guess whats in my mouth now? and no julie.. its not gum... *winkz* hehe) and guess what? guess who decided that today was gonna be a nice day and wear sandel-high heel thingers? yeah. the brainer here... guess ALSO who stepped into a puddle? yep. me again.. *sigh* and my feet were JUST so cold!!! i was like going nuts. haha... well.. i wasnt oging nuts.. i was just cold ingeneral. ahha.. ask sammi.. she knows.. hahaha.

guess whose not allowed to take her car into toronto? o.0 drat eh? like a weekend in town and i cant take my car with me?! whats the deal with that?! *sigh* my silly mommy.... oh! you know what she did?! she got on my brothers msn ... and she was like "WHY ARENT YOU STUDYING?!!??!?!" *sigh*... its called a break mommy... SOMEDAYS your brains just on overload... today would be one... honestly. where HAS my brain gone?

*sigh* while im at it.. you know those days, when you KNOW God loves ya, and you kinda feel how much you do and you're just like NO GOD!!!! DONT !!!!! cuz you HONESTLY feel like God made a mistake when he chose to love you? yeah... thats me... it was worst last nite.. but still.. some of the things from today... and yesterday before i actually slept.. made me realize.. that God loving me? i have no say in this.. but as far as me loving him? i have lots to say there.. its like how most parents love their kids.. not matter what they've done.. only the difference here, is that im a sinner, and God is holy... i think back to the sunlight commercials.. where the mother still loves her lil boy, even tho he played in the mud and got all dirty... and she is able to wash it all out... according to the commercial anyways... cuz thats kinda like Gods love... we sin...aka get dirty.. and by the Blood of Jesus, we are washed clean again! and even tho its kinda aggrivating to wash clothes OVER and OVER again, must like how God had to watch Jesus die on the cross for us, he still did it for us.. because we mean just THAT much to him, just like how that lil boy means a lot to his mother. kinda neat eh? as for me still wanting to crawl under a rock and never face God cuz hes so holy? i know that i'll have no sins when i stand infront of God when i go see him... because Christ has already washed my sins away..... and they have gone bye-bye.. never to be seen again.. and because of that, i am able to go to God and stand infront of him.

wow. i honestly didnt mean to write ALL that... haha.... i didnt think all of this out either.. woa.. haha.. but its all good.. i rather have the WHOLE world know how crazy and messed up my life is because i have doubts and i fear, and to have them know of Gods love... who knows whose reading this.. like HOW many ppl have found this already!? hahaa... its all good. yes? haha.. maybe i should honestly sit down and put my thoughts onto paper and send it to "the lighthouse" cuz we always need more articles.... and if you have an article you wanna put into Lighthouse *ahem* david*ahem* then send them to: mcbc_lighthouse@yahoo.com. the only criteria? the world limit is 750... cuz you dun need to rite an essay for this.. or if you have like a fun game or activity or something that you would like, you can send it to us too. haha... but thats just a thought. and article submission is may 2. so hurry hurry hurry! (pst... but if you absoultly have something to send.. you can send it after this date too.. it just mite not get put into the eddition thats comming out next.. it depends on when the editing gets split up.. ks?)

and thats all i hafta say... for now... *winkz* hehhe... oh wells.