so..... i was talking to my buddy aaron.... and... a revelation occured!!!! like WOA...... for those of you that dont know.... umm... lets just say that we tend to have a communication problem... hahaha..... and for those of you that know... SHHHH... hahahahaha...... neways, we were talking about free will vs. predestination... and for those of you that have been to way during one of those times that this is discussed, know that either the speaker tells us nothing in the end, or the discussion goes on FOREVER... so yes.. what the both of us came up with.....

oks... imagine you're a parent. you have the most adorable kid.. (its an ANALOGY!!!! dont get specific on me!!!!... you know who you are!!!!! *glares* haha) NEWAYs.. neways, you put them in the nursery. and you just KNOW which toy they are gonna play with, which toy catches their eye the most. where they want to go explore.. as a parent and knowing them soo well, you just know what their gonna do. its also like giving your kid a cookie (or a bottle of milk for those milk babies out there hehehe....^.~) you're gonna know if your kids gonna eat it or not, but you give it to them anyways, so that they can decide if they wanna eat it, or not, or just hang on to it, or play with it, or if their gonna give it back to you.

in a way thats like God. he gives us things. he puts us into places with situations, and he KNOWS how we're gonna react to it... but he just wants to see what we're gonna do.. maybe we're gonna explore and learn, maybe we will give the cookie back to him.... he knows, but he wants us to have a choice. at the same time, he knows us so well that he knows what we're gonna do... oks.. im gonna quote a lil of what aaron said.. which is so true but never really hit home til today. i asked him what he thought was so amazing about our lil conversation and he said:

"the biggest thing i think... is how well God knows us. i mean God knew us in our womb, he knows our thot patterns, he knows our hair count, he knows which choices we have made, making now... and will make

and for those of you who are gunbounding crazied (though i dunno why... cuz theres just WAY too much fisix involved with it....) its like being put into a room with a computer. 2 options. gunbounding OR doing your assignement that is like PURE cheese.... for those of you like my brothers??? hmm... the answer is gunbounding... see? there was a choice for you. but the person that put you there, KNEW what you're gonna do.

OH! and we talked about something else too... why do bad things happen? theres a lotta reasons that ppl say is why it happens.. some say its because theres no God... but when you look to nature, how can you doubt that theres a God? .. some say because we have sinned.. but God is a loving God and he forgives us, and forgive means forgetting also.....so, the result of the discussion we had?

"how is a kid supposed to learn to not play with a hot glue gun unless they get a blister? how does one play guitar well, without firstly developing calouses?"

so i guess what im trying to say, is that all this? its just a way for us to learn.. how else do we know what is right or wrong, unless we watch those we love get hurt, or get hurt ourselves? its one thing for someone to tell you what is right and wrong, and its a totally different thing when you can actually experience it, to feel it, to know what its like, in a way its like that longing or need to satisfy ones curiosity...

sorry guys.. i kinda rambled and preached to you ... whoops.. funny.. i was thinking how not much happened in my day, and i didnt have anything to blog about and lookie here... a whole "sermon" later.. hahah... its aarons fault.. i sooo blame him..... oh.. and apparnetly hes gonna blog about this too... so yeah.. whenever he gets to it... you can read his interpretation at aaron's page.. haha hes not as long winded at me.. haha.. but yeah... haha...

OH! and something i read today.. that i found pretty amazing...

.::THANK YOU::..
Thank You to those who hated me, you made me a stronger person.
Thank You to those who loved me, you made my heart bigger.
Thank You to those who envied me, you made my self esteem grow.
Thank You to those who cared, you made me feel important.
Thank You to those who worried, you let me know that some of you actually care.
Thank You to those who left, you showed me that not everything is forever.
Thank You to those who stayed, you showed me the meaning of true friends.
Thank You to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today.

so yeah.... every one in my life has had a plave and was put in my life because thats what God wants. and if i havent met you then, maybe i need to meet you.. there was a reason that you stumbled to this page rite?